Life

I have a desire to have never existed. Its not like I want to kill myself and it's ironic because I am religious. I just find myself thinking if I could have chosen I probably would have chosen not to exist. To not wake up or go to sleep or feel anything ever. It sounds satisfying. I wouldn't need to do anything. Of course I'm grateful I do exist but if I didn't exist I wouldn't have to be grateful. I wouldn't have to worry about how awful things can be (or already are). In my opinion most things tend to be negative. If I never came to be others wouldn't "mourn" losing me. There'd be no way for me disappoint others and such. No sadness or happiness or loss or discomfort for me to experience, ever. And it might sound like I don't want to live but I am trying to live and I don't wanna die.

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anonymous Sins August 15, 2026 at 12:06 am 0 0