out of control

Once my mom and dad got divorced 4 years ago, me an my mom moved into a two bedroom trailer. I'm 17 now but this all started when I was 14 and now is uncontrollable. We are in a large trailer park with ours almost at the very rear of it. I started the whole thing first by opening my bedroom window hoping some of the girls would peek into my room. Before I moved here I knew there were two girls from my old neighborhood who saw me nude a few times and one time saw me masturbate. It wasn't embarrassing at all and it just excited me. There are a lot of girls living here but months went by and none of them ever peeked into my room. There was one girl who lives four trailers down from mine and I got this great idea of giving her an anonymous note. I couldn't put in in her mail box incase her mom found it. So one day at school I put it in her school bag during lunch. She is a grade under me but I did talk to her a couple times. All I said in the note was that if she wanted to see a naked boy go to the back of the beige trailer with blue trim. Then telling her the location and times around 3:30 and 4:30 when my mom is still at work. I even said the window with the mini blinds.

Well it worked, because the next day I saw her from the kitchen going over behind the picnic table towards my room. I had the window up but only a couple inches with the blind down but not blocking the opening. I had a small mirror on my night table and could see her right outside. I just got undressed and walked around naked for a short time. Then I laid down in my bed which is almost right next to the window and just played with myself for a long time. I would get a hard on then let it go soft and start again. I did and still do this before I finally jerk off. What I never expected is that she would bring other girls and by now there are 7 girls I know but 5 or 6 or more other girls I don't know. Every one of them has seen me naked and watched me jerk off. Some of them have seen me dozens of times. Its like I never know who is going to be watching me anymore. I tell myself to stop doing it but it just gets me so aroused I can't stop. I never had one of those girls tell me they saw my naked but I'm afraid now that to many girls are coming around. I see these girls on the school bus, in school and lots of times at the pool but they never say anything about it and I sure don't. The one who has watched me the most times is Marylou and I think she is 15. I think most of them are either 14 or 15 but I'm not sure. My mom would kill me if she ever found out about it and I'm afraid to many girls know about me doing it. I know I can always say its is their fault and just say I didn't know they can see into my room. They aren't out there every day but 2 or 3 times a week a couple of them come. Now that school is out for the summer they have been here more often and I end up looking for them every day. I don't do it on weekends because my mom is home and I'm with my dad every other weekend. I'm not sure how many girls there really are that have seen me doing this. I thought I was under control of it in the beginning but now its not.

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Brian Sins July 29, 2019 at 11:52 am 1 1